Shrinkage
25
July
Gah! I’m getting frustrated with this personal blogging thing. More frustrated with myself, really. Maybe I’m putting too many constraints on myself. As I compose a post, I’m trying to consider what my kids will think of it when they read it at age 10. And 30. And 50. And what my wife will think of it. And whether anyone outside of the family will find it funny or moving. And after I wrote the Koson’s Lessons post that seemed to strike such a chord, I felt like every post needed to be of that quality. And frankly, I don’t know that I have that kind of quality in me on a regular basis. So I’ll make attempts to write posts that end in over-wrought over-thought gobbledygook.
It’s like when the content is supposed to matter most (on MY blog), there’s mental shrinkage. For example, right now I have 4 draft posts that end in “;ljqshfg;lashd;lajshdg;lajshflg;kashxciglbawhrioguhw;PIOUBVkxHO;AIUHRG,” which is what you get when you bang your head on your keyboard in self disgust.
But I feel so comfortable making comments on other people’s blogs. Like I can rock your world if you give me just a couple paragraphs. So maybe I’ll start making posts where I link to the comments I most like. Y’know, kinda like where people post on their blog telling you to go read a post they made on another blog? Only I’ll be telling you to go read some insanely funny or perspective-altering comment I made on some other blog.
It’s lame as hell, but I feel like I’m sucking pretty hard right now and need to find a shovel to dig myself out.
So without further textual ado, please go read this funny comment I made over at the Cheek of God. The comment includes the word ‘masturbation’ in it, and when is masturbation not funny? That’s right. Never.
1. Natalie | July 25th, 2008 at 3:52 pm
Hey, here’s the queen of not knowing if she’s going to regret a post or not, but HEY, there’s always DELETE!
I understand your dilemma. I worry about it, too (surprised, right?). I’ve decided that when it comes to my child, the only things I will post about him are things that are either praising him or criticizing my parenting. I do want to print everything out some day and share it with him so that helps me to keep it in check.
You know, I’m rambling and I think after this post and another one I saw on another blog, I have my next blog topic.
I think sometimes my comments are better than my postings, too. I’ve left some rather witty comments on Dooce and I can see the referrals coming in, but I RARELY get a new reader out of it. I guess I’m great with the delivery, not so much with the follow through.
For the record: I like your posts as much as your comments.
Shutting up now because this definitely doesn’t qualify as one of those “witty” comments.
2. Tina | July 25th, 2008 at 4:14 pm
I understand where you’re coming from, but you sound as if there are some things you really want to get off your chest. It seems to me that as long if you write from the heart with honesty and integrity, your wife and kids will understand and appreciate your words when they read them.
3. tysdaddy | July 25th, 2008 at 8:54 pm
Dude,
I’ve had over 600 comments on my blog since I began in February, and you’re the first Tweaker to use the word “masturbation” on my blog. I wish I had a badge or something to give you.
You are quite witty as well. I appreciate your perspective. Keep writing, my friend. And commenting . . .
4. Jack | July 26th, 2008 at 10:15 pm
@ Nat - Thanks.
@ Tina - There always are things I feel the need to throw out there, but get filtered several times, often ending up as wasted time and text. I may need to loosen up on the things I’m holding back.
@ I love being first.
BTW, is this Captcha thing damn near impossible now, or is it just me?